The highest degree of speakmanship is showmanship. This particular showmanship I speak of is a lifelong answer…a lifelong response to the greatest endowment placed upon a Father……and in the grand scheme of one’s life, we see a Father has one chance to do it right…..It’s the answer to the first words every baby utters…..”Show me.”
Fortunately, the hands of time, when playing with some more dust, said ‘You will go here.’ I am sure the God of these hands of time knew this newly engineered brain of this baby would require a uniquely tailored caretaker…Knowing that this child would soak deeply into the beauty and the pains of life….knowing the wonders…the mysteries….the ever changing seasons in the winds of nature would weigh heavy on this soul…..He blessed this one of his infinite creations and said go…enjoy….watch and learn……
37 years of empirical evidence in experiencing my Dad has revealed the ultra serious – most important – most powerful meaning of one grand facet of life: Dynamics.
I would never understand a crimson skyline behind a golden bridge…I would never understand the earth shattering gift in Beethoven’s 9th symphony….I would never understand true progression…such as the importance of that seed that from which comes a mighty forest…..or how the pawn in its seemingly tiny little world is such a monstrous powerhouse in the game of kings….and how this applies to life……I would never understand just how big this world is….this galaxy is…this universe is….and just how big God is….….I would never understand how to truly love….
Dad you are….always have been….and always will be the strongest dynamic in my life….You’re in everything I do and feel…..In the most passionate expressions of my heart that I can only attempt to put into musical form – you are there in every note as I never fail to wonder how this would move you….where you would go from here…..would your eyes close and feel this passage in the same way I feel…You’ve taught me – without ever saying a word – in how to flow in life……how to truly see life – though I so often fall short…..How to see time as such a gift and to expand the horizon of my often narrow view……How so much dissonance can uncover so much harmony….so much beauty……
Knowing that even the most powerful of words cannot express my heart for you…I so deeply hope you forever hear my love for you in conversations I share with you in musical form…..You’ve always shown me a composition is a conversation…..and in every ounce of every minute of my compositions….you are there…..For me I find it my solace…my solitude……and my world to truly talk with you……….
I want you to know…….you have Shown me……And through your love…I believe….
A boy tells a story of his Father……his teacher……his guide……..intertwined is the harmony and the dissonance…..the adventure and the solitary….the schooling and the nurturing……the love and the longing……..the call and the answer…….
This is a portrait of my Dad….Iconic…..
